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Gently rocking in my wooden chair out on the porch, unhurriedly swaying into the rotation’s black robes, folding like a veil over daylight; just so. Yes, just so – no intention, no agenda, no goal. And whilst I roll on the chair’s curved edges, while night surpasses day, and granting all forges ahead, somewhere in one of life’s countless little arenas the movements of the universe seem not to matter. 

Here perched on the top row, the still looker-on sets eyes and ears upon spectacles that can only be drawn by the trajectories of our trivial human existence, simultaneously carved into impermanent meaning: a boy and his BMX swaggering over the asphalt, popping a wheelie, turning and twisting, at its heel a stray dog like a loyal servant chasing shadows; there a kid, just a toddler, bouncing along, moving his body to yesterday’s rhythms, guided purely by that inner jitter our hearts and souls echo. Oh it spreads to yet one more, completely surrendering social apprehension, simply giving in to the urge to dance, all the while balancing a basket on her head. In that same production someone haphazardly kicks a ball, hitting another squarely across the face, whimpers, an apologetic fist bump, eyes lock, seconds hastily counted down, somewhere a game has found a new beginning, and a shirt and a bottle mimic two posts. 

What is the meaning of anything now? 

What is love? 

How should anyone know, if, whatever it is or isn’t can only be felt?

Around my tiny vessel mermaids coil foamy curls of ocean’s omnitude. Here, in this vastness the realization that I am nothing is so plain. 

Perhaps – her words echo through the depths of my heart – I can only choose to accept or to resist. And with that, part of me succumbs to the universe. Surge after surge, a ripple no larger than a snip in time as I involuntarily blink. Inconsequential. The other part instinctively withdraws from the unbending fate, as if herby the natural progression could be altered or even stopped. But why should it pardon me? The glaciers recede. Fairies sweep the emerald blue luster from their depths. I am doubtful if anything remains. I rest peacefully. 

And I supposed I was in control…